Q & A, Comments and Answers -They are old, but relevant-
Jyade c. ~During Demonic Rite
Here is an old page of Comments from People and my Answers.
It is a most interesting read.
There is much more, I will add it soon. Q& A and more..
I didn’t edit how they wrote their question or comments; it’s for you ;-)
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I was out of time, I will be posting MUCH more.
Very interesting (over all), and maybe they can help you understand some key concepts better..
5/15/2001
C: Your comments openly dismiss the supposed white magick or most any other magick that isn’t dark as being misguided
A: Magick is not misguided. It’s only people that are and how they are applying magick. Magick started out as serious business. Now it has become many things it was never intended to be. If I go to my Dr. because I have a problem and he gives some meds or otherwise cures me, has he performed white magick on me? Kindness, compassion, healing and other related things do not belong solely to the realm of white magick. They belong to everyone wise enough to apply it accordingly.
C: …and you claim to be balanced while you have walked an extremely dark path yourself, I wonder if you have been influenced by your environment.
A: Of course my environment has influenced me. The goal of darkness is to transcend though, not confine permanently.
Actually, I do not claim to be totally balanced yet, because I am not. I know more than most people, therefore I am more informed, i.e., less ignorant than they are. If I were complete I would not be here any longer. I would have reached the final goal. I still have a lot of work to do. Part of the balancing process is to integrate the knowledge that you have accumulated, and apply it. Not because you 'have to' but because it will become reality and your true nature. Therefore it will come naturally.
C: I know personally that any number of points of view can arrive at the same conclusion yet you have degraded others, I hate Christianity but I also respect it and know that their view of life will be different but I and a priest (from experience) have ended up at the same place.
A: I do not seek people out to degrade on purpose. It’s these same people who call me evil and foolish which intentionally seek me out or go out of their way to bash me out of their own ignorance and foolishness. I do not hide as they do. My thoughts, personal parts of my life story etc. etc. are here for all to read. That takes courage if you ask me. I am not one to openly share any personal info about my ordeals or myself. This sharing has come over time. Because of my interaction with a wide range of people over the past few years (because of my web site mostly) I have learned more about how to interact with people, and I have also copped an attitude problem. I do not appreciate the constant attacks. I didn’t ask for it but I have to deal with it now. I am still learning how to deal with it. I recognize the fact that I have an attitude problem. Now I can start to work on it. I wish to rise above the garbage that these people dish out and the filth of who/ what they are, not become like them. If I were to remain in my own private world, I never would have known about this side of me, or perhaps created this side of myself. But by doing so, I have even more experience. Now I can weed out the new garbage of my own life, because of the idiots, and become even more evolved with time.
I respect some of the intended teachings of Christianity, but I do not respect organized religion because of what it has done to people.
In regards to my anger problem: Do you know what makes me angry? Ignorance and purposeful stupidity. I am not always angry because I am constantly attacked. I am angry because I am being attacked via ignorance and sometimes prejudice.
C: You claim to have spoken to many demons/angels and said that you paid a blood penance to enter the underworld (wrist slashing). I don’t feel that a being of good intent would make this happen.
A: I didn’t slash my wrist. Where did you even get that from? I wasn’t trying to kill myself. The blood part of entering is just a fact. It has nothing to do with anyone’s intent, good, bad or anything in between. It's just the fact. The whole issue of who and what they are and what the whole - real deal - on what Darkness is about, has been covered by me over and over again throughout my writings, so I will not discuss it now because it will be overkill…to repetitive.
C: Guardians of knowledge yes I can agree with that but to ruin ones life to what extent is unknown and the punishment of weakness/ignorance is malicious.
A: Now wait a minute here... I have covered this a lot as well. The "ruining" of one’s life is pretty much the point. How will you know what’s really going on with yourself if everything is peachy keen? Besides, it only looks as if it’s being ruined. You are actually being recreated.
Ignorance should be punished, and it usually is. That's how some people learn.
Death leads to rebirth, and endless new opportunities.
C: And what are the motives of these dark divine, surely there must be something we do not understand about them and the underworld,
A: That basically the whole point of my work, to reveal what is unknown about them and misunderstood.
C: Some people view extreme pain and sadism as beauty, I don’t know what you saw but from the experiences you have went through and the influence of the darkness your vision of beauty is probably something foreign to me, maybe even frightening.
A: Perceptions of beauty can and should change as we change. You have to look beyond the obvious sometimes in order to really see the beauty, of a person or a situation. Some of my perceptions of beauty are what many people would find repulsive or insane I’m sure.
C: And the darkness is not complete balance and anyone who claims to be complete balance is somewhat misguided.
A: The darkness by itself is not balance; it’s only the other side. But it is only here that we may embark upon the path towards wholeness. (Yin & Yang, one half of a coin)
C: You have chosen a side (darkness) and you personify this, you might share common ground with others but in the end you will always be something more than others, for you its darkness. I myself know that no one can be the balance they sometimes claim, our actions and mindsets are only to human and will pick up on one trait more thus creating an imbalance, we can still be informed and experience variety but our core will emanate the light or the dark more then the other.
A: Ah, very, very true! This is where we can learn to recognize our faults and new defects and then work on them to eliminate them, or correct them.
C: And this is my problem, you have been influenced by darkness and I know this for certain, you cannot live in something without it taking its toll on you.
A: That is common sense. It certainly takes a huge toll. Some people will cope with it and process the whole of the ordeal, and others will not and therefore become completely insane and useless, and perhaps give up, if they are able to. If it were easy, everyone would be doing it.
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